SATURDAY Schedule:

Get up late hopefully
Eat Brunch
Move my Car (it's Spring Weekend at UCONN)
Read Comics
Study
Hang Out
Watch a Movie?
X lot baby, drunk guys and girls flashing thier titts, what more can you want,...
Chat with Kevin,....... he he

RANT:
Just been reminicing(sp) about the past with a friend,............ IT's SO DEPRESSING!!!!!!!
She was telling me how she and most people saw me back then: depressed, loner, dark, and that I was gonna off myself!!!!!!!! Can you believe it? I couldn't?? I didn't think I was like that,...... I remember being lonely and dancing alone at parties, but I didn't want to be alone. I wanted to fit in.

Shite, and thinking back,... I was REALLY depressed. I hated high school. And was very alone. I WAS dark and angry, and I look at myself now and I feel like I'm not much different today and that REALLY depresses me. It's no wonder I did so bad in high school, never really finished anything, or why I fail and dissappoint myself and others. Yes I have much more knowledge and 'skills' at my disposal, and I've learned to accept myself more and empower myself, but at the core,.. it's still the same. I'm lost, alone and angry,...lol. And yeah, depressed. Cause I've still haven't found peace and balance in my life. Sure I've been able to evolve in a sense,.. but the essence is still the same. I'm strong and confident because of my past, but underneath is still the same old me.

I suppose that's one big reason why the Military wasn't good for me. It really did put me back in the closet, in the whole 'high school' mind set, atmosphere and socially,.. in a way it's nice and kinda nostagic, to be considered straight, and kinda just trying to fit in, I kinda liked it???? Then again, I did go out to the gay bars on the weekends while I was in,..... whatever.

What changes anything? Do we always need outside stimuli, or something to force us into change? Can we not just change ourselves? Or is it that we just don't know how?? Shite,... I feel like I'm trying everyday. It's a struggle,.. torture, which only goes away when I forget. When I'm 'happy', which is temporarily enduced by little things like comics and movies,.. or 'Good company.'

Being straight seems to be easier. Though there are gay guys who seem to just have it so easy and then there are guys who just have it worse I guess. And I guess it's the same anywhere no matter who you are,....... argh!!!!!! Yea,.. so life is good and life sucks and life is good. It's just a cycle,... can we break outta that cycle into some stability? Some security? Does anyone REALLY even have it? Who are these people? Do I know any?

Do we only meet others who are like ourselves? Therefore, I need to CHANGE for the 'better' (myself more stable, peaceful, secure, accepting and balanced) enorder to meet the same?

Maybe.

I just saw Hedwig again last night. What a great story. I think at the end (refering back to 'The Origin of Love;' he finally found his other half. Not someone else, but Himself. And he was whole. Reborn. And now ready to meet that other 'whole' person out there. He did this by letting go of his past, and he found redemption, and peace, clearity, closure and acceptance?

WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?

CHECK THIS OUT:
If you're not reading X-Force now, you should be!!!!!!
Click on Image for link to Michael Allred's site!!!!!!!!!

Friday ADDENDUM (sp),... today's schedule below

OH my, look at this. I was right. I mean I suggested that Brett Booth would be perfect for a Thundercats comic,...... and look what I found!!!! CLICK ON TEXT!!!!

TODAY's SCHEDULE:

Rehearsal at 12Noon
Then Acting Class at 1
Then Math Class at 3
Then Rehearsal with Ben at 4:15
Then ??? Dinner
Then 7PM Meet in Branford Lounge (Grad Dorms) to go to see Hedwig at Von der Mehden Ricital Hall at UCONN!

The show is at 7:30, but I'm having people meet me to go together. Students or people who come with me $4 others $5,

Then hang out with Becky and Amy,... AMY, yeah, she's commin up!!!! Whoo hoooo!!! Oh, I gotta tell KIM!!!!!!!

RANT:

SOrry that I went nuts yesterday with the pix and links. I don't know how many hours I spent!!! Oh and if you notice that the text goes OFF the page and you have to scroll RIGHT to read,. SORRY,..... it because in my previous journal entry I tried to save you from having to scroll DOWN too much, so I put a bunch of pictures side by side, but that made it WIDE,....... so tell me which you prefer. It's probably easier to scroll down than to the right,..... RIGHT??? Well TELL ME!!!!!! (if you have no idea what I'm talking about, then perhaps I've already gone and fixed it?!)

ALSO,... can you those of you on the 'KCRRLives' Subcription please do a shout out so i know who's gettin my emails??? Do you guys even know you're getting them? Is it going to your junk mail. Cause I'm surprised alot of you guys don't reply. Esp. peeps I haven't see/talked to in a long while.

For most of you on the list, I've also changed your subscription to 'Daily Digest',.. meaning you'll get any given emails from KCRRLives for a day in ONLY ONE email. Though no one ever emails and I rarely even do a email a day,.... whatever!

CHECK THIS OUT:

Right now I have nothing for this section,.. so just go to my DAMN WEBSITE and 'CHECKIT OUT' , and MY PREVIOUS JOURNAL ENTRIES!!!!!

TEST TO SEE IF I CAN HAVE A PIC WITH A LINK ON MY EMAILER (if it works, you'll see a CLASSIC Gen 13 image that's LINKed to my SITE!!)

(THIS IS THE FIRST JOURNAL ENTRY FROM THE ONLINE JOURNAL SENT IN THE EMAIL)!!

THURSDAY:

Wake up,.. Class at 9AM

Break, Lunch with Kim,.. buy CD-Rs and possibly John's last X-Mas gift. Yes, you read correctly. Hey, I just got my sister and her boyfriend thier X-Mas present like a week or so ago (Moulin Rouge DVD!!!).

Then fall asleep in Theatre History 2 again.

Home, to study, work on the computer, dinner??

A.Q.U.A.? at 8:30

Spring Break Duty from 10PM to 1AM

RANT:

Oh, what a pleasant surprise when I came home today. There was a beautiful Sunflower by my door with a note. It's huge and very beautiful. Thank you Sharmeen. It was very thoughtful. Thank you.

I still have to get my sister her B-Day present. It was in February,... ha ha ha........ OH, it's also almost Mother's Day!!!!!

TELL ME IF YOU DON'T like that it scrolls over to the right!!! If you don't know what I mean, maybe I've already fixed the problem, otherwise, scroll down and you will see why,.. I put a bunch of pics side by side so you don't have to scroll DOWN so much, but now you have to scroll RIGHT to see it all. I can just have it all up and down too, sooooooo HOLLA BACK YOUNG'N!!!!!!!!

CHECK THIS OUT:

X-TINA: 'I love taking chances!'
Click on the text above to find out info on her new album and see new pics at her website.

"I'm not trying to do as much vocal gymnastics. Before, to make up for the kind of music I didn't want to be doing, I would over-riff, to prove that I have talent. It was too much. For this record, everything's stripped down to the bare necessities."

Scream Therapy
"[Musician/producer] Linda Perry [formerly] of 4 Non Blondes taught me not to be scared of my voice. She'd say, 'You have to stop worrying about that technical stuff, the riffing and ad-libbing. Just let go and sing - whatever comes out' She's like, 'I hear something in you. You've got this repressed, darker side.' I think it's stuff from my past - my father and stuff. One of the new songs is more rock, and Linda got me singing/screaming for the chorus, 'I just want to get away!' It's about freedom. It's finding strength in myself."

Gut Check
"I'm a pretty petite girl. I have a fast metabolism, but my age has been kicking in this year, because all of the sudden I'm like, 'Where does this little stomach come from?' I feel it on my thighs too, so I'm getting a trainer. But not to lose anything, because I like being a little thicker."

Christina Vs. Britney?
"Presenting with Britney at the 2000 MTV Awards was my favorite part of that night. Because we were on the Mickey Mouse Club together, we used to be best friends - and it's so weird how our careers have taken us to these places where there's this supposed rivalry. But I understand it because everyone's always looking for something to talk about."

Hostile Makeover: Andrew and Aguilera disagreed only once. "She wanted me to cover up her freckles," he said, "but I think they're beautiful." (The diva won in the end.)

What a Girl Wants: Aguilera skipped the catered lunch - lentil soup, spinach ravioli, and roasted vegetables - and went for a fast food fix instead. For lunch it was a six-inch Subway turkey sandwich; for late afternoon snack, she had McDonald's Chicken McNuggets.

Sleeping Beauty: On the eve of the shoot, Aguilera went club hopping at Manhattan hot spots Lotus and Bowery Bar. Even her blaring Busta Rhymes CD couldn't sustain her night owl's energy - she dozed off during her manicure.


WILDSTORM!s new Mature Imprint, ">'EYE OF THE STORM':

Featuring The Authority (If you haven't heard or read this title,..... YOU NEED TO, NOW, and double goes for The PLANETARY!!!!!! BUDDY!!!!!)

CLICK on the "TITLE" for one FAN LINK,.. CLICK on the PICTURE for DIFFERENT FAN LINK!!!!!!

Automatic Kafka
Black Sun
Point Blank
Sleeper

STORMWATCH: TEAM ARCHILLES (YESYESYES, Wilice Portacio!)
OLD


NEW


WILDCATS VERSION 3.0!!!

VOLUME 1 WildC.A.T.s (Covert Action Teams)
VOLUME 2 WILDCATSVOLUME 3 WILDCATS Version 3.0IMAGE 01IMAGE 02

MORE PIX

Jay & Silent Bob (Kevin Smith is the man!!!!!!CLICK)
KABUKI by David Mack OLDBRILLIANT!!!
PROGRESSION
CURRENT KABUKI stuff is MORE ABSTRACT/MIXED MEDIA
HIS WORK ON DAREDEVIL

TELL ME IF YOU DON'T like that itscrolls over to the right!!! I can just have it all up and down too, sooooooo HOLLA BACK YOUNG'N!!!!!!!!

Wednesday:

Wake up & work out?

Class at 1-4

Comic store????

Then Eat??

Go to see the sneak preview for 'Life or Something Like It' at the Crown. I got a pass for 2 from my comic store... hmm, who should I bring??? A date perhaps?? Or not kinda date?

Argh,..... wait,.. I have a RA meeting at 6:45, how could I forget,.. hmm, what now,... we'll see.........

CHECK THIS OUT:

If you Haven't been reading Gen 13, NOW is the time to read it,.... start with Adam Warren's run, issue 60,.. stick with it, you'll see what I mean!!!!!



NOOOOooooooooo,.......WHY KEVIN SMITH AND JMS are goin to Marvel (Interview with Kevin Smith)
"Joe (Quesada) said that, like every idea Marvel has stolen from DC over the course of the last year or two, this was another good one, and he'd be implementing it and insisting that he and Bill Jemas invented it."

DAMNED IT!!!!!!! This is the second time I had to write this because it didn't work and erased everything,... POOOOOOOp

Tuesday:

Class as usual.

Rehearsal (skip lunch, eat hard boiled duck eggs, avoiding the one egg
I still have from before St. Patty's Day)

Fall asleep in Theatre History 2 class, then back home and stress
about whether or not I have a worm on my computer.

Fire Inspections@ 6:30 with a resident and then eat dinner with her and her
friends. They're cooking me a Philipino meal,... mmmm!!

Mommy's commin up, shite, should I cancel dinner to eat with her? Other people
seem to think so. She's commin up with Master Yi and her hubby to check out
the Fencing Team/Club at UConn. I may check it out myself (9PM)

Then: Hang, study, maybe John'll come over and read comics!!!!

RANT:
I just found out today I didn't get the job for Summer Confrence Housing, because they had already hired for all the positions, though they said that I'm at the top of the list of people to call if a position opens up! POOOOOOOp, now I gotta figure out if I wanna pay $850 to live here or what?????

CHECK THIS OUT:

OH my Friggin Savior Batman!!!! Jim Lee to take over Batman with 608

OH my goodness, if you can't see this image, click HERE and you WILL SEEE what I mean!!!!!!!!!


Ronnie, this is for you,.. check out 'LOOKING INSIDE AUTOMATIC KAFKA ' and some art by Ash Wood

'The Museum of Black Superheroes'

'Love Letters' Betty Berzon from PNO
Check the ones on AGE, MONAGAMIE, CHEATING, and and,.. I forget. BY THE WAY, THEY WERE ALL SENT TO KCRRLives, if you're a subscriber!!!!!

Monday:
Ok, I have a Math exam today I didn't really study for. I guess I was too wiped out/exhausted. Tried to get up early. I did, but not as early as I should have.

My first class is at 1,.. then my Math exam till like 4.

Then I have to put up my second round of notices for Fire Inspections that I'll be having tomarrow.

After that??? Don't know. Dinner, rehearse, Study maybe hang?

THIS FRIDAY MAY 26


'HEDWIG and the Angry Inch'is playing at Von der Mehden Ricital Hall UCONN.

I'm meeting people at 7PM at the Branford Lounge (Grad) for the 7:30 show.

Come with me,.. $4 student (or with me), $5 other

Give me a holla!

So how will Lucas, who once created an angelic Luke, morph his new hero into Lucifer? "He turns into Darth Vader because he gets attached to things," says Lucas. "He can't let go of his mother; he can't let go of his girlfriend. He can't let go of things. It makes you greedy. And when you're greedy, you are on the path to the dark side, because you fear you're going to lose things, that you're not going to have the power you need."

Hey, Gotta study for my Math exam tomarrow. Oh poop, I'm drowning my plants.

I love '21 Jump Street,' 'Kabuki,' Gen 13,' 'Star Wars,' and,......... they just make me happy.

Went to Gotham City last night for Ant's B-Day!! ,..... Speaking of Gotham,.....


From Newsrama:
LEE/LOEB DO BATMAN MONTHLY

The Rumor Confirmed

Addressing rumors first reported by Newsarama in early March, DC Comics has confirmed that beginning with October 2002's issue #608, writer Jeph Loeb and penciler Jim Lee will take over the monthly Batman series as its regular creative team, for what's currently tentatively planned as a year-long,12-issue run...

Click on text for full article.